may angels lead you in

R.I.P. Charles Dajoun Conley 9-9-91 - 10-17-10
You were an amazing person, one who could make the whole room shine just in your presence. You always knew how to make people laugh. You are the one person who could make me laugh so much that my stomach would hurt every time. I think everyone can agree that you had a heart of gold. your heart was big enough to let everyone and anyone in. And you proved that to be true with the countless people who came to your lighting yesterday. So all we can do right now is take a little part of you with each of us, so that one day when we all meet again, we can put back the pieces together. You always saw everyone as a team, a family, our class of 2010. Your death has brought so many people together. You touched the lives of so many people: friends, family, and even strangers. That is how much of an impact you have on us.

I've only known you for a year but the memories I had with you will stay with me forever. I will always remember 2nd period gym class with you. The time when you lost at the watermelon game and in order to get back into the game, we dared you to run around the gym pulling your shirt up; having Ms. Pisano tell you to stop and having the rest of us laugh hysterically. The time when we would play football and you picked me to be on your team (thank god I was not last picked because I stink at football). You were so hyped and into the game, even if it was just gym class. The time when you started dancing out of nowhere right in front of Ms. Pisano (she couldn't help but laugh). These moments might have seem so trivial at the time, but looking back, they were probably the best times I had with you.

I do regret not being able to get to know you better. My prayers and love goes out to you and your family. You'll forever be in all of our hearts. To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you are the world. Rest in peace. I'll be seeing you Charles.

Until then, you are our angel. Keep us safe

Moving on is simple. It's what we leave behind that's hard

this is really happening. college is starting. people are leaving. it's actually hitting me when i see pictures of friends' dorm rooms and their roommates. it makes me sad to see those closest to me leave, but i am hoping they will find their way back home. we all say that it's not goodbye, it's see you later. but how much of that is true? a semester goes by, we meet different people and experience new things. do we lose touch with the old friends we leave behind? i like to say that nothing will change and everything will be the same. but i've experience enough to know that isn't true. in the past 17 years of my life, i've met some of the greatest friends i've ever known and also lost some of the best people in life. to see that i've lost touch with the closest people to me at one point in my life, whom i've shared all my secrets with scares me. it makes me think that nothing is ever safe. but then i also met people who were complete opposites of me and who i never thought could be someone i could trust. it's really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends, but it's really sad when the best of friends become two strangers.

don't walk to me, baby, run

so its exactly two weeks until i start class! gahhh! i don't know whether to be stoked or sad? but i'm definitely ready to jump in and meet new people; change it up you know? :) i still have so much stuff to do before the semester starts, like getting my parking permit, paying my term bill, getting my schedule!!!!(which i have been waiting for forever), finding out what my work-study jobb is. yeahhhh crazy how much i still have to do in 14 days.

i wish i was dormingggg, just cause everyones finding out who their roomies are and everything :\ and the whole moving in and dorm shopping. yeah :[ booo haha but i'll live.

okayy with that all said, goodnight.

the song remains the same

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

27 days left until summer is gone. 27 days left until reality kicks in. 27 days left until college starts. before you know it, it's gonna go by just like that. it's kind of crazy how fast every day is going by. it doesn't matter if you slow down because life keeps going, time keeps running. you just have to keep up with it.

in love

i am in love with life :) everything is gooood
no worries, no problems. i don't want this to ever end.
i'm happy to say that i'm in love with my friends&family and that i'm not in love with anyone.
people have this mindset that life is better with someone special in their life,
but i'm lucky to have more than one special person
i am surrounded by my closest friends
so yeah, i am happy to be single :)
but really i haven't been this happy in a really long time.
it's been a heck of a summer so far
it's funny i look back on my xanga and all i would write about in my entries are love &
heartbreaks and quoting lines from movies and songs.
but now i'm quoting about life.
&& let me just say it feels pretty darn good to be living in the moment
instead of brooding about the possibilities of 'what-ifs' and 'could've beens'
so before everybody parts for another chapter in their lives
hold on to these moments forever & don't take it for granted
because it could all end tonight...
p.s. summer, please slow down!

I live for the nights that I can’t remember, with the people that I won’t forget spending all the money I just work my ass off for doing things that I won’t regret make the most out of tonight and worry bout it all tomorrow call me over rated or creative or too jaded because any way you put it bitch I made it, YUP.

so i've been listening to a lot of music lately. Drake & Tyrone Wells are amazing. two completely different artists but they're amazing. you should check them out :) i promise you you'll enjoy their songs.

summer 2010

days turns to nights, night turns into whatever we want
we're young enough to say, this has gotta be the good life
when you're happy like a fool, let it take over you
when everything is out you gotta take it in
so tell me what there is to complain about?

summer 2010 is kicking off to a great start :) tanning, beaching it up, being with the people closest to you; what more can i ask for?

So i just realized my goals in life : Don't take life too seriously. Spend more time with the people I love. Be spontaneous. Don't let work overtake me. Travel the world. Spoil myself occasionally and not feel guilty about it. Find someone I can share my whole life with. After all, life is for living

gahhhh i'm gonna kill someone when one more person talks about twilight. waiting on line for the midnight showing for a movie with actors who cannot act is embarrassing. sorry twilight fans.

The end of an era

Four years is a long time.
Four years to make friends (and in those four years, find who your real friends are). Four years to find innocent love. Four years to let loose and have fun. Four years to be okay not to make the best judgments & choices. Four years to stay young and not be in a hurry to grow up.

Thirteen more days until the end of an era, the end of high school. When we walk down the aisle, receive our diplomas, and move our tassles to the right; that's the end of it.

Life all comes down to a few moments. This is one of them.

Enjoy and take in every moment you've spent in high school because it's a once in a lifetime kind of thing. But don't get stuck in it. There is a bigger world out there. High school is just a little part of you, it's not your whole life. So it doesn't matter if you were the cheerleader, the band geek, the nerd, the football player, or just the normal one. By the end of all this, just find out who you are and try not to be afraid of it.

"Pretty soon, we're all gonna graduate, and I can start over. But it'll be hard for people who need this place to make themselves feel special. People who use high school to build themselves up and then find out that the real world doesn't care so much about who you were in high school." -- One Tree Hill